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happy halloween, trick or treat

barney: the anti-hulk

i just read jianxu's blog, i think it really is somewhat more interesting, the blog and him. you have to go out and try more things right now, and don't be ...guai. don't get stuck at home all the time, worrying over the work you got to do, because in the end you really know that at least half of it's a waste of time.
you have to sometimes remember to live life, go out, go explore, that's what i feel, because then you'd be able to gain a more accurate, realistic idea of the world, something you can't get if you do only what all the schools tell you to. i mean you'd learn more about, say singapore, by experiencing it rather than sitting around watching nice videos of all our nice-nice hDB blocks and whatnot. GO SEE THE night, the places less seen, the paths less travelled!

well after that you'd probably be able to make better art too. i somehow feel that many places and cities are better explored at night.

i still want a bike. been inspired by the scouts' zhng-ing of their bikes. i want to go night cycling with my music. i think damien rice'd be a good companion, he writes some touching songs.

today i received a football and a mic. i tried both today,and both are in excellent working condition. well the ball bounces high, i think it's overpumped. not much of a problem though, we could still shoot hoops with it. the mic works well too, and the kbox person was amused by it. with three mics in a kbox room, you can finally sing a threesome. you can finally do an SHE.
thank you to debo and jo and lanlan and sian ru and eve and yanjie and enci and qixuan and tiak hui and ling and kao and qianying and syahidah for everything
and to erpei and yenriel and jordan and hin kai and kwokcheung and hanhao and wilson and xurong and derrick for going
and zihua and danial for wishing me too.
oh and to the indians for changing deepavalli from the 26th to the 27th so i could properly celebrate TOM'S DAY
thanks you all here's a smiley =) everything meant a lot to making it a memorable birthday
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i want to explore singapore at night, i want to go to the nooks and alleyways, i want to sit at a coffeeshop and stone there late into the morning/night. and i want to go atop a HDB block and sit and watch the sunrise. then after that i'll consider singapore done, and i'll move on to africa. probably to zimbabwe or somewhat else. no difference really.

see, i was inspired by this discovery channel thing i was watching just before i turned seventeen. it's the typical fare, angmoh guy ttrekking thru the jungle and the camera getting impossible shots of him going thru all kinds of shit. which also kind of makes me cynical and all, about how hard and wild it really is if he is accompanied by his cameraman. and probably a helicopter, judging by some heli shots. oh well.

point being. being on this earth, i am not about to spend my whole life just living here and not properly explore this beautiful planet. oneday i shall go explore africa, take in the sights, and maybe see some awesome animals. nature.
seeing the manmade stuff's never as good, i guess. i don't know if all this inspiredness is inspired by that angmoh's inspiring way of describing and crapping about zimbabwe, but i am quite set now on seeing africa.
oh and this is forest-green-animals infested-africa not dry desert one. well according to the angmoh's enthusiastic commentary too right, the mountains and hills there have been around for millioooonss of years. so i find that more exciting and awesome than seeing the people of the earth. that'd be cool too, but people come and go, and if i wanted to properly see the earth, i'd go to nature first and cities second.

all this makes me kind of sick of singapore. darn. oh, and barney's the opposite of the hulk. see,whereas the hulk gets into angry-modes, barney gets into gay ones. the hulk gets big when he gets into angry mode, likewise barney gets big when he turns on the gayness. furthermore, the hulk's a big green dude in purple shorts, and barney's a big purple guy with a green stomach. same thing really.

ocean's eleven, ocean's twelve, ocean's thirteen, troy, fight club, babel, burn after reading.
i've been seeing a lot of brad pitt recently

CAPRICORN

um tag replies:
yes thankyouthankyou i was aware that i had to pay to do that. but the phone has this sorta link to blogger, which impressed me. haveto wait till next fourteenth to see the bill and how much i have to pay but for now i think i can just update tomcaw everynow and then and stave off a couple of meals to save up for it =) ahmen catastrophes: debo's glasses fell? haha i wasnt aware of that! didnt someone step on a snail as we were walking out? or a crunchy leaf. and the lamp breaking remember? that pillow was intended for me.

sleep patterns:
i think the afternoon naps are making me a happier albeit more easily tired person. for the past few days or week i have been sleeping clocking an hour or two in bed in the afternoon, and i don't sleep past midnight anymore. i noticed that at around six to nine in the mornings, my mood is normally at its worst. probably because i should be sleeping then.

i want to conduct a sleepwatching session sometime soon. maybe one day i'll stay up at night and watch my grandfather sleep
=.=

ahem. ZOMG I CAN BLOG PHOTOS FROM MY PHONE i didnt know that. now i feel like a connected, new-age modern nokia man. blogging photos from a phone. wow. it's straight out of those big black musicapturenjoy buses or the tv advert with people drawing on the floor.

anyway. phone picture quality sucks so that's kinda anticlimatic. if you want to see how much it sucks you can go to www.tomcaw446.blogspot.com it's a random default name that the phone or sony ericsson gave, and the fact that the name tom is inside merely cements my apparent link with the Gods of Tyco, as demonstrated too by the avalanche of catastrophes brought about by me on other beings yesterday.

now i'll go watch troy

to-morrow's horoscope

i am looking forward to tomorrow because i will see my parents and sister and uncle and aunt again so i will be with my family again.

i predict bright but cool weather.
and i will install worms on my computer >=D
this is what you get after promos
and completion of a written report

my birthday is coming up and i hope that not everything i want would be something to be bought(huh??) materialisticness!
meantime i enjoy jay chou's latest album, capricorn. for people like han hao: i like the songs flower sea/our happiness ne/fragrant rice and most significantly time machine!

i wonder how cute doraemon is. i feel i am missing out much from the world of anime and japan

in ocean's twelve

matt damon came over in-flight on the plane to confide in brad pitt about something that was troubling him and then after that he left happily and hesitantly and said like, 'you know, i almost didnt come over'. and brad pitt's "then i'll still be sleeping here", and matt damon smiles and half-bows his way back to his seat. "thank you"

oh by the way

i was referring to computer soccer! pro evolution soccer

the silver lining is

not as nice as a red lining on black denim which is the style i shall want, and soon i'll go shop around.
i am happy because i just ate pasta , i wonder if my ah~ma reads my blog, she cooked pasta

ohya.

i'm promoted

i have found that techno songs and remixes make me happiest. i dont know why so many people find them irritating! at least brother qixuan likes them too..

shall collect my new jay chou album tomorrow hopefully, if i complete enough PW stuff in the day. time machine's a very nice happy song with a cute MV. our happiness, it's another song and i found it nice, pity about his singing. Mv was in a nice setting.

religion! i found that if you neglect god and choose to rely on yourself, it'll get hard at times and you find yourself getting too heavy to support. so i have learned to be thankful that jesus' there to carry my cross for me. i'm going to church this week, i'm going to be a christian again, proper.

some major badass report deadline's coming up, for all you non-jc readers. and we have to rush it by friday. really, if not for this, post-promos land'd really be a veryvery happy place indeed. pwee.

lastly. i like my chemical romance's 'disenchanted'. i know i have talked about many songs in this post. but i like this, and i find the live version's even better. it makes the last bridge much nicer, even touching.
i think i generally like many kinds of songs anyway.

want pasta.

t-shirts are the tuxedoes of sentosa

,a rather random quote but anyway, something i came across glancing thru http://www.palin-facts.com/

sarah palin is the reason why compasses point north

haha. but the purpose of this post is not for me to laugh at her again, i think it's bad for us to all ridicule someone to such extremes. poor woman must be having youtube nightmares now. and secondly it appears that many are being distracted from the seriousness of this political event in america

mostly i just feel -hey cool this is my hundredth post!- sorry for her
oh i just spent two plus hours on the computer drawing! i did our group's poster for project work! cant say it's completed, but i'll call it done for now. GO TO MY DEVIANT TO SEE.

slept a lot today, i'm not sure why. awoke at ten then slept from one to five. i've been trying to sleep more at around one in the afternoon recently, because i read in the reader's digest that we should be having a short nap around this time, such is the biological pattern of our bodies. so i slept in the afternoon.

LMNT's hey juliet, camera obscura's lloyd, i'm ready to be heartbroken and fan wei qi's songs and several boyzone songs as songs that i really like. you gotta admit it, sometimes, sooner or later, you just feel in the mood for some boyband pop.

anyway. something that inspired me today. my youtube session has just started and already i feel determined to at least learn one of these moves. probably the one at 00.15. yeah right

cool mann

k is for the killers

'mr brightside' is one of my favourite songs, although cameron diaz isn't really one of my favourite actresses

and i like the MV of 'read my mind', although i can't find it on youtube anymore. it's a nice song

and what's sam's town, america right?

i think so, and 'romeo and juliet' is a nice song too, i found out it's a cover though

i must try and find their live album

got this from adriel's blog and i found it rather useful
dumped in some photos from my australia holiday last year, because the reader needs pictures to give the eye a visual treat every now and paragraph-then
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Life and How to Survive It**Below is a speech to the graduating class of 2008 at NTU convocationceremony last week by Adrian Tan, a litigation lawyer and the author of TheTeenage Textbook. Read it! It's hilarious but very meaningful.


I must say thank you to the faculty and staff of the Wee Kim Wee School ofCommunication and Information for inviting me to give your convocationaddress. It's a wonderful honour and a privilege for me to speak here forten minutes without fear of contradiction, defamation or retaliation. I saythis as a Singaporean and more so as a husband.


My wife is a wonderful person and perfect in every way except one. She isthe editor of a magazine. She corrects people for a living. She has honedher expert skills over a quarter of a century, mostly by practising at homeduring conversations between her and me.


On the other hand, I am a litigator. Essentially, I spend my day tellingpeople how wrong they are. I make my living being disagreeable.Nevertheless, there is perfect harmony in our matrimonial home. That isbecause when an editor and a litigator have an argument, the one whotriumphs is always the wife.And so I want to start by giving one piece of advice to the men: when you'vealready won her heart, you don't need to win every argument.


Marriage is considered one milestone of life. Some of you may already bemarried. Some of you may never be married. Some of you will be married. Someof you will enjoy the experience so much, you will be married many, manytimes. Good for you.

The next big milestone in your life is today: your graduation. The end ofeducation. You're done learning.You've probably been told the big lie that "Learning is a lifelong process"and that therefore you will continue studying and taking masters' degreesand doctorates and professorships and so on. You know the sort of people whotell you that? Teachers. Don't you think there is some measure of conflictof interest? They are in the business of learning, after all. Where wouldthey be without you? They need you to be repeat customers.

The good news is that they're wrong.

The bad news is that you don't need further education because your entirelife is over. It is gone. That may come as a shock to some of you. You're inyour teens or early twenties. People may tell you that you will live to be70, 80, 90 years old. That is your life expectancy.

I love that term: life expectancy. We all understand the term to mean theaverage life span of a group of people. But I'm here to talk about a biggeridea, which is what you expect from your life.

You may be very happy to know that Singapore is currently ranked as thecountry with the third highest life expectancy. We are behind Andorra andJapan, and tied with San Marino. It seems quite clear why people in thosecountries, and ours, live so long. We share one thing in common: ourfootball teams are all hopeless. There's very little danger of any of ourcitizens having their pulses raised by watching us play in the World Cup.Spectators are more likely to be lulled into a gentle and restful nap.


Singaporeans have a life expectancy of 81.8 years. Singapore men live to anaverage of 79.21 years, while Singapore women live more than five yearslonger, probably to take into account the additional time they need to spend in the bathroom.

So here you are, in your twenties, thinking that you'll have another 40years to go. Four decades in which to live long and prosper.Bad news. Read the papers. There are people dropping dead when they're 50,40, 30 years old. Or quite possibly just after finishing their convocation.They would be very disappointed that they didn't meet their life expectancy.

I'm here to tell you this. Forget about your life expectancy.
After all, it's calculated based on an average. And you never, ever want toexpect being average.Revisit those expectations. You might be looking forward to working, fallingin love, marrying, raising a family. You are told that, as graduates, youshould expect to find a job paying so much, where your hours are so much,where your responsibilities are so much.

That is what is expected of you. And if you live up to it, it will be anawful waste.

If you expect that, you will be limiting yourself. You will be living yourlife according to boundaries set by average people. I have nothing againstaverage people. But no one should aspire to be them. And you don't needyears of education by the best minds in Singapore to prepare you to beaverage.

What you should prepare for is mess. Life's a mess. You are not entitled toexpect anything from it. Life is not fair. Everything does not balance outin the end. Life happens, and you have no control over it. Good and badthings happen to you day by day, hour by hour, moment by moment. Your degreeis a poor armour against fate.

Don't expect anything. Erase all life expectancies. Just live. Your life isover as of today. At this point in time, you have grown as tall as you willever be, you are physically the fittest you will ever be in your entire lifeand you are probably looking the best that you will ever look. This is asgood as it gets. It is all downhill from here. Or up. No one knows.

What does this mean for you? It is good that your life is over.
Since your life is over, you are free.
Let me tell you the many wonderful things that you can do when you are free.The most important is this: do not work.
Work is anything that you are compelled to do. By its very nature, it isundesirable.Work kills.

The Japanese have a term "Karoshi", which means death fromoverwork. That's the most dramatic form of how work can kill. But it canalso kill you in more subtle ways. If you work, then day by day, bit by bit,your soul is chipped away, disintegrating until there's nothing left. A rockhas been ground into sand and dust.

There's a common misconception that work is necessary. You will meet peopleworking at miserable jobs. They tell you they are "making a living". No,they're not. They're dying, frittering away their fast-extinguishing livesdoing things which are, at best, meaningless and, at worst, harmful.

People will tell you that work ennobles you, that work lends you a certaindignity. Work makes you free. The slogan "Arbeit macht frei" was placed atthe entrances to a number of Nazi concentration camps. Utter nonsense.

Do not waste the vast majority of your life doing something you hate so thatyou can spend the small remainder sliver of your life in modest comfort. Youmay never reach that end anyway.

Resist the temptation to get a job. Instead, play. Find something you enjoydoing. Do it. Over and over again. You will become good at it for tworeasons: you like it, and you do it often. Soon, that will have value initself.

I like arguing, and I love language. So, I became a litigator. I enjoy itand I would do it for free. If I didn't do that, I would've been in someother type of work that still involved writing fiction – probably a sportsjournalist.

So what should you do? You will find your own niche. I don't imagine youwill need to look very hard. By this time in your life, you will have a verygood idea of what you will want to do. In fact, I'll go further and say theideal situation would be that you will not be able to stop yourself pursuingyour passions. By this time you should know what your obsessions are. If youenjoy showing off your knowledge and feeling superior, you might become ateacher.

Find that pursuit that will energise you, consume you, become an obsession.Each day, you must rise with a restless enthusiasm. If you don't, you areworking.

Most of you will end up in activities which involve communication. To thoseof you I have a second message: be wary of the truth. I'm not asking you tospeak it, or write it, for there are times when it is dangerous orimpossible to do those things. The truth has a great capacity to offend a ndinjure, and you will find that the closer you are to someone, the more careyou must take to disguise or even conceal the truth. Often, there is greatvirtue in being evasive, or equivocating. There is also great skill. Anychild can blurt out the truth, without thought to the consequences. It takesgreat maturity to appreciate the value of silence.

In order to be wary of the truth, you must first know it. That requiresgreat frankness to yourself. Never fool the person in the mirror.

I have told you that your life is over, that you should not work, and thatyou should avoid telling the truth. I now say this to you: be hated.

It's not as easy as it sounds. Do you know anyone who hates you? Yet everygreat figure who has contributed to the human race has been hated, not justby one person, but often by a great many. That hatred is so strong it hascaused those great figures to be shunned, abused, murdered and in one famousinstance, nailed to a cross.

One does not have to be evil to be hated. In fact, it's often the case thatone is hated precisely because one is trying to do right by one's ownconvictions. It is far too easy to be liked, one merely has to beaccommodating and hold no strong convictions. Then one will gravitatetowards the centre and settle into the average. That cannot be your role.There are a great many bad people in the world, and if you are not offendingthem, you must be bad yourself. Popularity is a sure sign that you are doingsomething wrong.

The other side of the coin is this: fall in love.I didn't say "be loved".

That requires too much compromise. If one changesone's looks, personality and values, one can be loved by anyone.

Rather, I exhort you to love another human being. It may seem odd for me totell you this. You may expect it to happen naturally, without deliberation.That is false. Modern society is anti-love. We've taken a microscope toeveryone to bring out their flaws and shortcomings. It far easier to find areason not to love someone, than otherwise. Rejection requires only onereason. Love requires complete acceptance. It is hard work – the only kindof work that I find palatable.

Loving someone has great benefits. There is admiration, learning, attractionand something which, for the want of a better word, we call happiness. Inloving someone, we become inspired to better ourselves in every way. Welearn the truth worthlessness of material things. We celebrate being human.Loving is good for the soul.

Loving someone is therefore very important, and it is also important to choose the right person. Despite popular culture, love doesn't happen bychance, at first sight, across a crowded dance floor. It grows slowly,sinking roots first before branching and blossoming. It is not a silly weed,but a mighty tree that weathers every storm.

You will find, that when you have someone to love, that the face is lessimportant than the brain, and the body is less important than the heart.

You will also find that it is no great tragedy if your love is notreciprocated. You are not doing it to be loved back. Its value is to inspireyou.

Finally, you will find that there is no half-measure when it comes to lovingsomeone. You either don't, or you do with every cell in your body,completely and utterly, without reservation or apology. It consumes you, andyou are reborn, all the better for it.

Don't work. Avoid telling the truth. Be hated. Love someone.

You're going to have a busy life. Thank goodness there's no life expectancy.

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oh and i remember sometime in church long ago, someone said that the opposite of love is not hate, but indifference. just a side note though that i thought of while reading this












the subway sub bug was damn cool right.
clouds there are nice, you find more pepsi than coke, and it comes in glass bottles.
fish n chips are served in big, big, big portions. which is very good and in paper wrapping so it can be takeaway-ed
daylight there lasts into the early hours of the night
some shots were taken at king's park, perth, this super big park. very nice place, grass much like istana, you can lie there all day really
others were taken at some vineyards and random small parks where the piers were white with bird shit